So my doctor's appointment went pretty well I think. I'm comfortable with how things have gone so far mostly and I don't really object to this decision.

I've been developing signs of pre-e over the last two weeks. It's gotten slowly worse and worse. I'm due monday so we haven't been *too* worried so far. I went in to my appointment today and my doctor said that since my symptoms were only getting worse, but my blood work was still fine, that instead of waiting and risking the situation turning into what it seems to be, if Taryn doesn't show up on his own this weekend, we'll be inducing Monday morning first thing. 

I'm relieved to say the least. I know most people don't seem to think it's a great idea though but I've been so uncomfortable and really not feeling well so it's a relief to me. Plus this way, everyone I want to be there, will be able to be there. 

Just thought I'd post and let everyone know. :-) This baby may be June after all!

So ok I deleted most of my old icons and replaced them with ones I found recently by wendleberry . Which in my own personal humble opinion, are genius! I went to look at the text ones I saw in a community and fell in love with everything I saw there. Firefly icons, random goodness (like a man "weeing" off a building) all kinds of neat and beautiful, and funny icons! I have never really found anyone whose style I loved so completely when it came to icons, or anything really but seriously....check it out!

Especially you violentrayne cause one of the entries has an icon with a camera lens and it says "I shoot people for a living" I think it's in the most recent entry but I'm not sure.

Ok that's all for now!

No seriously....have you seen/heard about this? Seriously....I was on google this morning and I found that the second most searched for phrase on google in the united states is "I married the Eiffel Tower". So I searched for that phrase and OMG you have to see what I saw. Below is the link to a blog that has a video in it. It's twenty some odd minutes long and it's about this woman Erika La Tour Eiffel who is one of fourty some odd people who fall in love (literally) with objects. 

Objects. Yes, that's right.

http://weblogs.newsday.com/entertainment/celebrities_blog/2009/03/she_married_the_eiffel_tower_n.html

Go there, watch the video, be morbidly fascinated, and then rethink your relationship with the objects you own or "love".  

I fail again. I never know what to say when it needs to be said and right now things need to be said but I don't know what to say so instead I try to stay simple and end up over complicating things by presenting myself as if I don't think it matters when truly I do and it does but it just looks like I don't and it isn't and that's just not right.

*whispers* happy halloween, Happy Samhain So on and so forth. *glee*

Then please, join my group evil_exes  I tried other usernames but the ones I wanted were taken. *sighs* evil_exes  isn't really an accurate name for the purpose of the group but whatever.

Anyways, I needed a group to vent, somewhere to find other people hurting, other people going through divorce, breakup, hurt, betrayal etc from longterm relationships or just a relationship they were devoted to but it wasn't reciprocated. The ones that seemed most likely on LJ were dead, and I just can't do forums very well. So I started my own group. But I'm the only one in it.

So please, promote it for me? Invite your friends? Join even? 

Ok so for those of you who are wondering what is up, here's the deal.

My name is Kat. I have been on livejournal since 2003. I started out as darksidekitty then bought a name change after two years to madladykat and then after a few months to carmineclover  I deleted carmineclover  several months ago, thinking I could give up LJ as an "old habit" and use Myspace. I have used myspace much more often lately but I have been thinking of coming back here. So I made a new account as close to my original old account name as I could get, and voila! Here I am.

I used LJ for social networking back in the day. This time I'm using it to still keep in touch with a few people, but also more for groups now. I used to be in over a hundred communities and that got old, fast. I've already joined a few and am waiting for to fit the restrictions on a few others. I don't like Myspace forums, groups etc. I much preffer LJ's system. it's neat and clean and simple. 

So mostly I'm here for certain interests. I'd love to make new friends too though. So....say hi!

After much more thought, I've come back to LJ. Not sure if I'll do the massive friends list and paid account thing again but I'm here.....for now.

Life is too boring up here!